Change your self and live stress free life (VI)
Well so I had to quit smoking. Its look like almost cruel joke to me that how could I quit smoking when my day was start with smoking? How could I quit smoking when I smock 4 packs daily and failed my self several times? Anyway I decided to try again and one more time I quit cigarette but let me tell you what happened I quit at morning and pickup again at noon. So my moral was down and smoke more. So I had given my self a thought that what is reason behind my smoking.
I find out two reason first is obvious. I addicted to it and second one is I was enjoying it. Now again I have given my self hard thought why I am enjoying smoking? It is because I had no other interest or enjoyment. So one thing was obvious if I had to quit smoking then I had to develop other source of enjoyment. So I explored several options like reading, movies, collecting stamps or enjoy money. I opt for 1st and 4th option. I like reading always so I decided to more read. But 4th option was tough one.
One can enjoy money when he has money. So I decided to make money but how I don’t know. Our store was closed and I had no money to finance it again. Hello let me clear one thing here when I decided to making money not means billions but sufficient for respectful and decent living. But several constrains to do this against me like
- Nobody wants to finance me because I lost trust of almost everyone who knows me. Not because I had their money and didn’t return it but because of my impression of lazy bones, eccentric, indifferent….
- To make money I had to interact with people and because of my shyness, my inferiority complex, my lake of confidence in myself and these were my biggest constraint to do anything constructive
- Depression and constant anxiety were also looming around. So being self sufficient was almost distant dream to me.
- I hadn’t any special skill in any particular field
Above were some major constraints to do anything constructive for me and quit smoking looked distant dream to me. But at least I had idea that how I could quit smoking. It could be done successfully if I develop some other interest or enjoyment against it
Hello may be you are bored so next for tomorrow
