Sedrik’s Blog

What I am thinking today, is it good idea to bore you people with my past? Generally people talk about their today in the blog. But my idea of talking about my depressive past because  let you know that if you are suffering from depression, stress, anxiety disorder or panic attacks, you are not alone. Millions of like us or in worst condition then us living in modern world and worst is some of them are not even know that they are suffering from something curable.

Ok where are we yesterday? I tried to change my attitude of shyness and quit smoking with no luck. Even sometimes my depression worsens because of poor financial condition. Worst yet to came and my dad who handle affairs of store got depression because of some family matters and problem with his brother. Instead of it remained depression condition fast convert to schizophrenia. Now it’s totally on me and my brother to handle store.

Now instead of work in store or handle day to day affair I pass my time to worry about store and our financial problems. Instead of solve problem I was westing my time to just worry and worry. My brother tried his best to handle store and for sometimes everything was fine. But my condition became worst. Even antidepressant didn’t help me. Again I got suicidal thoughts.

I passed my all time to worry. Instead of finding any solution for problems I was just worried. I worried about how we paid money to supplier? If my dad’s schizophrenia ever cured or not? How did we keep store running? What happened if clients not paid us money which they owed us? How we did we paid loan to bank. I developed worst habit I anyone ever had “Instead of face the problem,  just ran away from it” Instead of opted for fight like a man I opted for flight.

Hello much for today next will tomorrow …………